Saturday, October 13, 2012

Ouch!



Well you haven’t heard much from me these days, and that’s probably just as well as pretty much all that I’ve got to share is whining and moaning. I know that I’ve mentioned this horrid little skin condition that have before - Erythema Nodosum.  My current bout with this crap is by far the worst that it has ever been, and my legs are probably 50% covered in these large and painful bruises and bumps, and this time I even have about half a dozen “bonus” bruises on my arms, even though the disease usually limits itself to the legs. Saying that I “hurt” everywhere is kind of like saying that fire is “hot” – it is a significant understatement. So not only do my legs hurt very badly, but they are swollen and covered in these horrible dark red, black, and blue bumps that just look horrible. Needless to say, this doesn’t really motivate me to get all dressed up and try and pass myself off as pretty.
This service call was probably one of the harder service calls that I’ve ever made. Harder not so much for the work that had to be done, but for the stress that was involved. The customer had major problems on their end that we had to iron out, and then after we worked out their bugs, we found problems in each of the three systems that my company had provided. Other than the fact that my legs hurt so bad, the physical work itself was not so hard, but the mental anxiety and stress of trying to troubleshoot and repair all of these issues at a high profile customer like IBM was a bit of a bear.
On this trip, I was stuck away from home for almost two entire weeks and so I did eventually decide to try and spend some time “as Kim”. Not much I could do about the pain, but I was reasonably happy to find that a pair of tights at least hid the nasty colors of the bruises. Believe it or not, this was the first time that I have ever worn tights, and while I was happy with the look, I wasn’t all that thrilled with how hot the darn things are!
 

The first time I got out was over the weekend, and I went to see a couple of movies. The movies must not have been terribly interesting though, because I can’t even remember what they were now. I do recall getting all of the usual grins as I was buying my tickets, drink, and popcorn though.

As I was getting ready and “putting on my face”, I once again suffered from the overwhelming feeling that I looked horrible. Every day I see more wrinkles, and I’m sure that it comes as no surprise to anyone that reads my blog, but I am pretty much obsessed with my hatred of what age has done to my face. In a pleasant surprise though, when I was all done and got my hair together, I was actually fairly pleased with my appearance!

The next time I got out was when making the trip from Fishkill to Albany New York the day before my flight home. Since I was booked for a 620 AM flight, I made sure that I got a hotel near the airport the night before my flight, so that I didn’t have to get up at 2AM to make the drive. Anyway, I made the one and a half hour drive “pretty”, and wore a dress and shoes that I had just bought at a Marshalls that week. Quite honestly, I don’t think that the dress flattered me too much. I thought that the shoes looked awesome, but I had a lot of trouble walking in them due to the height of the heels. With the fact that I just wasn’t used to wearing heels that high anymore, combined with the way one of my ankles was swollen with one of the bruises I mentioned, I was walking far less than gracefully. I really should have chosen shorter heels even though I very much wanted to try my new shoes.



So, odds are good you wont be seeing a whole lot of activity on my blog for a while, and for that I apologize, but I’d rather write nothing than to have folks start thinking that I do nothing but whine and complain! When my skin condition relaxes a bit and doesn’t hurt so bad, I’ll probably get back on the horse. Until then, y’all have fun out there~!



12 comments:

  1. Kim -
    So sorry to hear about your skin issue. There always seems to be something that gets us down a little bit, but all will be well soon. I know that stress and too much sugar always cause me issue with a skin condition, so just try to relax and don't let the BS wear you down. You still look great to your loyal fans.

    Hugs - Dee

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  2. OMG, you are so beautiful!! I am absolutely blown away over how good you look in your pictures. Wish I could look that good. It would cure so much of my indecision about TG. I had never heard of this particular skin aliment before. I've been having skin problems (itching and red rash), but nothing as painful as you describe. I sure hope you get better soon. Thanks so much for your post and blog. I love it. Allison

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  3. Kim - I'm sorry to hear about your skin issue... But we love hearing from you - even when you discuss things from your time in boy mode. So don't fret when you don't have too much to say about traveling, if you have something to say from other parts of your life. I enjoyed reading about things that happened with your daughter - simply because it fleshes you out as a full person, and not just a one dimensional cross dresser that travels. These things are what help make you an interesting person - and part of what makes your blog well worth reading....
    Marian

    ps: Do you find it easier to get flights to Albany than to other airports that could bring you close to Fishkill?

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    1. I think that there may be a regional airport closer to Fishkill, but the price of the flights goes up quite a bit when you start going in and out of the tiny airports. If that is gonna cost my company more than about $100 extra, they would rather have me spend time driving from the larger airports. LOL

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    2. Kim - There is a closer airport (SWF - Newburgh, NY), but the schedules may not be good because of the lack of airlines servicing the place. Right now, an alternate to Albany, NY might be Hartford, CT. But given a choice between the two, I'd go with Albany because it is in the same state....

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  4. Sorry about the legs.

    The pics are sizzling hot as always. i wish you could see yourself as the rest of the world does- beautiful inside and out! :)

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  5. Those shoes certainly are awesome, I'm glad you still managed a bit of pretty time, I find it aways helps when I'm feeling down. ~ Hope the skin condition clears up soon, you know we care about all of you, not just your pretty pictures.

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  6. Kim
    I hope that the skin condition clears up. It is never good to be in pain but as we age we find that if it is not one thing it is another.
    I like the top and skirt outfit better than the colorblock dress. Both sets of shoes are great.
    There is a small local airport not far from Fishkill. Across the river is Stewart in Newburgh. They have never really gotten off the ground (sorry for the poor play on words) but there may be some flights that would give you a connection. Other than that you are doomed to the Albany, Westchester County or NY area airports.
    Pat

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    1. Scales -

      Westchester is closer - but usually more expensive than the 3 major NYC airports. That's why I didn't mention it in my post. If one is willing to drive 90 - 120 minutes to an airport, then Albany is likely the best bet.

      Marian

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  7. We are always our own harshest critic. I don't think you'll find a whole lot of folks agreeing with you about your appearance, sweetie. "Aging gracefully" is a challenge for all women, and I think you are handling it beautifully - literally and figuratively. Your inner beauty shines through every time you smile - so keep on smilin'!

    Julie Michelle

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  9. in spite of your pain you still look pretty "hot" in the first photo. :)
    you have great leg shape in spite of the problems and i loooove your current hair style in these photos. the first outfit is great too.
    i only wear tights when the temp goes below 30 degrees out with a wind chill factor. and although they are much more durable and therefore easier to put on... i'd prefer panty hose or in the warmer weather no leg covering the best (shows off my toe nails better LOL)
    thanks for sharing.

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